Saturday, April 5, 2008

Getting Serious about Playfulness

After the date, and after doing an overnight marathon of anime via YouTube, I came to think about how I'm really not that old, even though I'm physically 20.

I might be called smart, but the majority of my psyche, if I'm using this word correctly, is below this age considerably. I guesstimate that I am an average of 16, mentally speaking.

Thus, if I am going to think anywhere in the direction of dating, I need to find another big kid.

It cannot be a mature adult, because I would not appeal to her, and obviously a high-schooler as a companion would be too weird. So, a similar case to myself would be ideal.

What I propose is this: I will seek friends (with the possibility of something more) that are 18-24 years of age, smart, but have the mental and emotional age of a high-schooler, like myself. I plan on a long friendship, and if things go well, perhaps is will blossom into a more meaningful thing.

That said, those who are aware of this proposal need to know more about me. Obviously, I should not reveal things like my exact location and other more personal data to the general audience, because that would be begging for disaster, but I can give a bio, sure.

I am male (duh.), 20 years of age, have a winter color scheme going (meaning I have dark hair, and light tan skin, which means I look good in bright red, blues, violets, all shades of grey, and other cool colors, but look horrible in yellow and orange, or green with any yellow in it), am sort of geeky in personality, am fairly handsome, but not really a head-turner, I think.

I like blueberries, computers, GNU/Linux, some Japanese anime especially the cute (as in adorable) kind, although I like Naruto, Bleach and Fullmetal Alchemist as well, gardening (especially veggies, perennials, vines such as grape, jasmine, passion vine and especially wisteria, I also like model trains (N-scale, as OH-scale is too big for me), eating with chopsticks, learning new cultures and languages (although I do not have that kind of time usually, I may try to learn either Chinese or Japanese, perhaps Japanese, since that is a big business language, and I would not need to have english subtitles anymore, and also because the Japanese seem to want us to learn their language as a people, as so would not be against my learning, I would guess.) I also like to cook, though I have little opportunity, time and skill. I like hanging out with my friends, and listening to classical, soft rock and tokyo-pop (I think that is what it's called?) music. I really like the smells of chocolate chip cookie dough ice cream, hickery wood smoke on Wintery air, the smell in the morning after a overnight rain, and the smell of certain books, like large 10-year-old dictionaries.

I like to laugh, am very carefree most of the time, and try to be a lot of fun (I think I usually succeed, since I have a lot of friends. I come across as weird sometimes, and sometimes I do this intentionally, just to be ornery, and I try to live life and enjoy it while it lasts. That is part of my philosophy as well.

I like camp fires, fireworks, incense, holiday/Christmas lights, LEDs, flares, lighting bugs, cobalt blue glass, prisms, lenses, fiber optics, variable-opacity window panes, glow-in-the-dark things (as long as they aren't el cheapo) and all sorts of things related to the production of light.

My favorite color is cobalt blue (or blue-blue-violet), an intense, thoughtful, beautiful color, followed by silver and black, followed by bright flag red.

My favorite foods are English clam chowder, Papa John's Pizza's "the works, regular" pizza, my mom's banana nut bread the way she used to make them, maraschino cherries, blueberry and pomegranate Italian spritzer from Whole Foods Market, chocolate-chip cookie dough ice cream, berries and granola parfait, flavored yogurt, granola breakfast cereal. Whole Food Market's organic root beer (it's much better tasting than A&W, which is my favorite regular root beer, but slightly more expensive, so moderation is required at present). I also love certain pastas, and my mom's "sketti" (spaghetti and meat sauce) is so good, it should be marketted commercially. I love garlic and onions, so the vamps out there should watch out. I also like potatoes, whether deep fried as french fries, tater tots, or potatoe chips (or crisps as the English would call them), mashed, skillet fried, or au gratin. That must be the Irish in me. I love blueberries in any reasonable form, and blueberry yogurt is great.

I love key lime pie, lemon merangue pie, blueberry cheesecake (or shortcake), and chocolate pudding pie. I love real pumpkin pie, and I like pecan pie, as well.

My favorite kind of weather is in the morning after a Spring overnight rain, where it's about 65 degrees F, with a slight breeze, bright and sunny, with a fairly high humidity. I love walking about looking at all of the raindrops on the grass and foliage, with the sunlight sparkling off of it all.

My favorite song changes, but right now it's the earlier theme song to "Negima!" (even though it's called an ecchi-type anime, the ecchi actually takes away from its appeal. I ignore those elements, and even look away from the screen at times, even though the majority of it is quite cute. I might be a guy, but even I agree there is too much bloodshed, gore and hatred in this world of ours. I appreciate the finer things, like innocence, beauty, cuteness, colors, and light, as well as education, books/literature, music, art, and such. Read my dislikes on the subject of seriously "macho" behaviors).

Some basic information about my past: I went to school at Klein Oak High School, in Spring, Texas, USA, and I did well at the TAKS test (Commended Performance in Science, missing only one problem, and History of all subjects), as well as the SAT (I was below average in Math, very high in Critical Reading, and low in Essay Writing). I took AP Computer Science, which was surprisingly easy, content-wise, but very fast paced, I think I did okay in it, but am currently unsure. I am doing so-so in college, and am planning to transfer to Brookhaven College, in Dallas.

I cannot tell you my current location, because there are people who would misuse that information. (Jerks!)

Also, I have had a troubled childhood, but I'm cool with it, and try not to let it bother me. A few leftover problems is that I am nervous when placed in certain weird situations, but during normal social situations, I'm fine.

I already have a friend that I'm dating, but as neither of us confirms or denies that we are boyfriend/girlfriend, I have to assume we are just friends, and that nothing more will come from it. I will keep my audience informed if it does go farther, so as to cancel this offer. We only went on one "date," but does that mean anything. I do not know, so I have to keep looking.

I am probably going to start a job soon working in a supermarket or theatre, but since I'm not working now, I have limited funds to use during dates. That will change, hopefully. I need to be more independent.

Thinks that I do not like: I do not like unnecessary dishonesty, disloyalty, hypocrisy (including expecting of others what one does not expect of oneself - this includes me, I do not expect of others what I do not expect of myself - whenever I break this moral code myself, I get really pissed off at myself. The self-punishment is severe). I also dislike unnecessary rules and regulations, or those that are unreasonable or make no sense. I dislike unnecessary secrecy, especially that that causes harm and misunderstanding. I dislike bigotry and unreasonable hatred, but also dislike harmful labeling and hate-mongering. I dislike the more powerful praying on the weak, but also dislike the weak taking help and respite for granted. I dislike freeloading, but cannot argue this point due to the fact that I have have no job and live with my mom. That will change in time when I become more responsible for myself. We are working on this problem now.

There are various things I want to do someday: learn Japanese, Chinese, Spanish, and perhaps Gaelic, just for the fun of it. I'm currently learning how to play the piano, but I really need to practice more often. Usually I just play, when I'm supposed to do specific exercises. I need to work on that. I'm attempting to compose a piece, but I should really learn theory, first.

I want to vacation at Tokyo someday, perhaps on a honeymoon or something (although any wife I might choose would make that choice, and if she should wish to delegate some of that decision, that would also be her choice. If she wanted to go to Paris, Hawaii, or even Hong Kong, that would be just fine.

I want to have a house with a huge backyard, so that I can have an elaborate garden, with veggies, flowers, a gazebo with vines all over it, a patio with an arbor over it, a quiet meditation spot, with statuary that would also hold incense. I plan on having a large household with many children, and seeing them through college, and having all of the things I never had, like a good childhood, with many friends at school, and a decent education. I hope for a wife that will be understanding while keeping me in line, and a career in either computers, horticulture, or both.

I may even start a business, like a garden nursery or Open Source computer shop.

Currently my goals are to complete a Bachelor of Science in Computer Engineering, but am contemplating other options, like pursuing a Bachelor of Science in Horticulture, instead. I am keeping that option open, but am serious about obtaining a Bachelor's in something I like to do.

I plan on remembering how it is to be a child, and to keep my inner child alive, so that when and if I have children, I can relate to them more easily, and therefore take better care of them.

I love dogs, cats, ferrets, pet rats, and parrots, and I'm usually good with animals and kids.

Almost all of the time, even with dogs that have a reputation of biting, dogs love me. Cats, unless they have a semi-feral or shy nature, don't mind my presence.

I have no known allergies.

Physical data:

I am tall and pretty thin (I am 190.5 cm [or 6'3"] tall, and I weigh 78 kg [or 172 pounds]), although now that i'm 20, I am gaining muscle.

I am very fast, and have long legs. I can jump pretty high, and should have been in track and field in high school, though curcumstances would not allow.

I have dark hair, with a grayish-brown sheen in the sunlight.

I have hazel eyes, and have had them described as "gunmetal gray with gold flecks." My eyes are one of the things I like most about my appearance.

I have a somewhat squarish jawline, somewhat like an acorn (i'm not really sure how to describe such a thing.)

I have an aqualine nose, full lips, and braces (I'm hoping those will come off soon!)

I am very expressive, and one can always tell what I'm feeling by looking at me.

Mental data:

I am somewhat disjointed in thought, and can jump from one idea to another in a moment's notice. I am very original and creative, and like to improve on other's ideas, to make them my own, but I can come up with completey original ideas as well. I can draw fairly well, and I can sing and am not afraid to, although I'm usually somewhat off key (probably because I'm trying to sing full chords, which is impossible with only one voice. One can always tell if I'm in a good mood if I'm humming or singing wordless songs. When I'm singing nonsense songs that I'm making up on the spot, that means I'm hyper, and that I'm in a very good mood. If I'm very quiet, I'm probably sleepy, slightly depressed, or both, but this is rare. I'm usually talking or working on something, usually on my laptop computer. I have a tendancy to talk a lot, and about many things, and I sometimes rant about things I think I know something about. I am told I'm funny, and I supppose I am, but I only hear this from my friends, so that may be bias speaking.

Anyway, I guess that's enough for now. Bye!